29 May 2012

Exit Door


I’ve changed: I feel it in every sinew.
Things that once made me happy now have no effect on me.

It’s been months. We were inseparable… you & me… me & you. You loomed & I burrowed closer. You crashed & I drank you in. I functioned for so long without you, Ii don’t know how to continue on with you.

I’m not the same person who left you behind with subtle promises of forever staying in touch & silly teenage dreams of how we’ll be when I return to find you waiting patiently.

08 May 2012

Purple Skies

Gotta make a living somehow.
Eternal sleep is not an option without eternal life.
The order of life is to live, throughout the cycle there is a foreward moving motion.
Blink yourself awake & dream up a graceful day filled with laughter & without regret. (The stand-still point will be regret)
When skies get rough I pray we never hide from life's storms, but see the day through: (perpetuate the motion of forth without having to rush into what we're not ready for)

Divine

Mistakes!
Was this all a mistake?
Did I let my guard down for too long?
Did you creep inside my heart?
Was it all a Dream?

The questions abound, sprouting from shoots to form buds on branches. But I am still asleep and Those branches are wrapping around my form and the tree limbed questions are consuming me without end. I want to break free, Freddie, but I'm trapped by my own answerless ways.

My muscles work relentlessly too break the crippling tree-hold. It seems all is lost. Brfore I can be fully consumed my mind drifts sleepily toward him. Here. There. Everywhere. Nowhere.
But it's too late to call after him. My heart yearns for him.

Leaves begin to grow from the tips of my earlobes, my fingers feel wooden and a strong taste of sweet maple syrup lingers on my tongue.
My heart thumps and thuds, I feel it throughout my oaken body.

 I am now the living tree. Divine.
I hear a pretty melody clear and serene.

I know he is there, before the bird has the chance to give away that secret with silence, I know it. My rooted feet want nothing more than to leap toward him. I don't see him... or hear him. But his presence is strong.
My head thinks it is a trick, but my heart knows the truth... always has.

He prunes and shears back my wayward leaves so that my eyes can meet his again. In his eyes I see me; leaf-less, fleshy and exuding life as I was always meant to.

I am Divine, the Living Tree.

03 May 2012

Memory Lane

Don't lead me down Memory Lane.
It's a scary place.
You know those horror stories they tell kids, the ones that keep them awake at night?
 The ones about clowns in the closet & the boogey man beneath the bed?
They are the ones that inhabit memory lane, not me.
Don't take me down memory lane, it's a scary place...