Jig-Saw Me

My bones are like the left over jig-saw puzzle pieces
that you’re all trying to squish together
but they just don’t fit.

They’re missing the essential bits
to glue them in place, the balls & sockets
don’t join to create completion
they’re made of different materials that just don’t gel.

Words Flow Out Like Holograms

my bones ache...
my toes freeze...
my smile is fixed...
& i am still a little happy
        ♥
im a fat girl pretending thin...
but success is not for me to win...
as im just a cog in the machine...
just a cog in the machine
         ♥
my heads a mess...
no longer a fuzz ball just too muddled for words...
                                                                        ♥
its done. its over with. my goodbyes were said, my tears unshed.
                         ♥
i laugh to keep the tears locked inside
i forget
i sing along til my voice is gone...
i believe in the power of song...
but most of all i believe in you
                  ♥
my head is spinning...
my throat is tight...
my smile was fixed...
good night

I love meeting new friends

hi! Again

can you believe ive almost been here a month now? it feels like a few short days... even though it feels like ive never left. it feels weird to have to find your feet from all over again & then to have to train them in which directions to move - left,right,right, left (no army formations for me please). there have been days where all i wanted was to walk maybe even the 500miles we sang about. there were even times i just wanted to sleep the day away. but each day i see as a day to have confidence in confidence alone if somehow i cant have any in me... im working on it okay. ive made new friends, its strange how i feel as though ive known them all for years & years & years, but that we've only just met.

so i wanna raise my glass of juice & propose a toast: To the Good times & the Bad that lay ahead of us all, lets always try to be the best we can be.

Happy Easter Egg Day

went for a walk this morning... Florida is so beautiful in spring!

can't decide which to nom on first...

Do you think they'll be mad if i chomp at their heads?

the Easter Bunny came to visit... FINALLY!!!

The Clouds: Home Coming

And then my voice cracked and we were laughing so hard that I had to brace myself in my seat. And before we knew what had hit us, the tears came streaming down.

Catch a Fallen Dream

And it suddenly goes dark.

Wish... wish... wish... upon a star to guide you on to reach her.

Always just a breath away, always just too far for me to stray.
Sometimes i fear the loneliness she’s left behind. I think she’s the only medicine that will fix these crumpled hearts of ours.
Sometimes I fear the depression, but I still don’t know how to help either of us.
Nothing makes sense... but it all makes sense to me.

A dream is just a sequel to a nightmare.
My fears for her are valid as she flits through the constellations, as she leaves behind unanswered doubts and questions that whirl through my mind.
Through the dust we orbited some colourful Planetary rings and suddenly so suddenly we were struck with logic, forcing our feet to halt.

What if the dream we were chasing happened to reject us?

We got too close and she was always just out of reach.
I’d been chasing her for so long, planning our every conversation shared.

No words reached my lips when she whispered: “Your world will soon end,” she touches her thumb to my lip to calm my bubbling emotions, “My world will soon end,” she says louder now hoping (I think) to break this sleep-spell she’d cast on me. “Our world will soon end,” she says in that same way a bored school mistress would when knowing her student still hasn’t grasped the information she spews forth. “This world will soon end,” she says exuberantly as she hugs me to her and happiness brightening her dark eyes.