My contemplation right now is whether to name everybody by name or band or most prominent literary work to date.
I have had so many inspiring people in my life as of late. Be it in day to day living or through a song that got me to sleep after my nightmares stole the blissful hours from me. Or like the complaints of a customer in a check-out line or some wacky TV commercial or a touching moment between loved ones. Or the times i had my heart broken (which seemed to be all the time).
But really I want to thank all those who’ve helped me, skimmed at these, laughed at them or even with them, screamed at anything I’ve ever posted (because I really can’t write and it frustrates the hell out of you that I seem to never take the lack of comments as a hint at that), hated that almost every sentence is either disjointed or it begins with ‘And’. If you’ve ever had a ‘wow moment’ I really am sorry I didn’t mean to let that happen. And if you’ve never got my sarcasm then you’re a real trooper for even starting to read any passage, text, paragraph or simple word I’ve allowed to slip past me. To the pushy and undaunted- thank you if you had never ‘peer pressured’ me into anything I would have become a turtle stuck forever in its shell (but I still don’t believe in peer pressure and I will always be glad for you and I really do want peace- now I just feel like ‘Gracie Lou Freebush ‘).
I apologise to those who never understood anything I forced out of my pen, to those who misconstrued my meanings... not everything was about me (it rarely is). Don’t worry half the time I don’t get it either.
Did anybody realise how badly I ramble. I clearly never make sense and yes I did once reference “making cents”. I love to break rules: hello! I start sentences with the word ‘And’ like always. I suck as a suckish-rebel and I can’t spell or spell-check, but I’m a dreamer it’s just that at times of blissful inspiration I never seem to get the ideas out of my head (or heart) exactly as I had imagined them to be. And I don’t care about that.
So thank you for reading, commenting and inspiring. And for you who never have read anything by little ol’ me, thank you anyway.
This is by no means ‘good-bye’. None of this was ever meant to be seen; I just needed to back up my ‘stuff’ after my hard-drive decided to through in the towel the first time. I am not about attention grabbing, I just wanted to say thank-you and I truly appreciate your attention.
(As with every fanfic I’ve ever read or written, I clearly don’t own any of the bands, their songs, the poets, their poems, the authors, their books, the oxford English dictionary... but i do own the notepad I bought and the pencils I’ve had since my brother noticed them go missing from his school stuff- when he still was in school- and not forgetting my ‘life’ or to those who don’t know me well, my beloved laptop.)
Last but not least: God, my parents, my friends , JJ, Lynn and everyone else forgotten, you guys have been there for me when I didn’t think I would or could survive or for just scaring me senseless enough to remember that I’m not alone, never was and never will be.
Thank you for letting me express my own opinion in a world that could care less.
Love Linzay (njinwonderland).
Ps...Apparently I don’t even own the pencils I stole from my brother JJ. –NJ
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