Dear Juliet,
I know this is supposed to be about love. No, not just any kind of love, but the unattainable kind that people lose their minds over. So I guess this is where I warn you that I haven't found the one and neither has he found me... yet.
It's as though love keeps bypassing me. My friends all have sparkles in their eyes and here I sit faking smiles to prove that I'm okay being by myself. Sometimes it really is okay because I really am happy and most of the time those smiles happen to be the real deal.
I dreamt him up... those eyes that change each time they burn deeper into my soul. I see him before me, but he's not mine, he's just a memory of a dream that won't come true.
I've gone so far as to mould him from clay, to try to breathe life into that mound of sand and hope for him to love me.
Love is all around us (sometimes I forget), and I'm trying my damndest to learn to be patient for when my unattainable love comes to find me... for when my Romeo comes to find me. (If ever you want to play fairy godmother just please give him a push in my direction... the right direction.)
I know that one day, someday soon, I too shall have that sparkle in my eye and the love from my one keeping me safe.
Love nj in wonderland
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